Sunday, 11 December 2011

Working 9 - 5

Our stay in Ibiza was wonderful again.

Whenever I get get off the aeroplane I get this feeling in my chest. It is a difficult feeling to describe, perhaps it is a sense of contentment, a feeling of being home, a feeling of just fitting there. This time the weather was cooler although still warm, we were still able to sit and and swim in November. Even now writing about it I long to be back there. The scenery there is quite dramatic, although part of Spain there is something else going on there, by that I mean that you can still feel the influence of the ancient moors and the Phoenicians. There is something about those green hills, some magic that is difficult to describe.

Will Ibiza ever be more to us than a place to spend some part of the year? I don't know. Could we afford to live there? Maybe. It would probably require a lottery win for us to buy property there. It is because I don't really know what I want that I cannot make a commitment to anything. How long will I feel like this? Will we ever settle somewhere? Perhaps we just haven't found it. Should we be doing what makes us happy now, or should we be concentrating on building some security for the future, because there is a conflict between the two.

I have a confession to make. I am working again, doing what I used to do before. BUT it is only a six week contract. The pay is decent. And I am actually enjoying the work. The downside is it requires a hotel stay 4 nights a week. We still have the rented house in Wales which we go to at the weekend.

I do wonder how some people live in the same place and do the same things and go to the same job all their lives. Personally I have undergone incredible growth and change over the last 10 years. This is part of my issue with settling or committing to something somewhere, what if I change my mind, what if I outgrow it? I have wanted different things at different points in my life. That is why I continue to keep things flexible and non permanent. I continue to rent a house but I question the financial wisdom in this.

We have resolved to go to Portugal in the spring to have a look around. Perhaps we could find a small home there in a fishing village near the coast.  Somewhere not too far from an airport.

One thing I am sure of is that I want/need to live near the sea. I don't think living out in the sticks is for us, I don't think I am really ready for that yet.

4 comments:

The Quest said...

Hi Dreamer :) I was online, posting away on my blog, when I saw your new post pop up.

I just wanted to say that it's OK to work LOL Retirement can get boring and produce a loss of purpose and working is a good way to stay connected with the things that you know and do well as well as a method of making money of course! Nothing wrong with it. I miss working, having been forcibly retired for 3 years now beginning in my 40s when the global economy dumped LOL It took me a while to get out of that work routine but now I'm shaping life to fit in with the resources that the spouse and I have available to us. It can be a good time for introspection and formulating. I know that it has presented us with the challenge of living a new and different life of less consumerism and more resourcefulness. I like a challenge :P

Life sounds good for you! I hope you are happy or at least happier with the direction in which life is taking you. Ibiza sounds wonderful and Portugal is a country that I have always wanted to visit. Keep me posted!

Dreamer said...

Thanks Quest, I just felt a bit you know strange because I had shouted on my blog about work being evil and never ever again was I going to work in an office doing what I used to do, LOL, but its different this time, its not forever, I feel in control and I dont HAVE to do it to pay off some huge mortgage (like before) for a place where I didnt really want to be anyway, I see this more as a way forward to pay for the flexible life that we wanted re Ibiza/Portugal. And it never hurts to refresh your skills I suppose.

But yes you are right, living on a limited amount of money really focuses the mind on what is really necessary and what isnt :)

Mellow Yellow said...

Hi - just saw this on Alice's blog about someone wanting a farm sitter in Portugal - and i thought of your blog !

http://quintanemus.blogspot.com/2012/01/urgent-farm-sitting.html

Dreamer said...

Thank you for thinking of me mellow yellow.