Saturday 13 June 2009

Patience

I have to remember that the best things in life don't come easy.

To give us the best possible cushion we really need to wait until 2011 for the escape. We have worked out our numbers and we need to be saving £4k a month to reach our goals. Fortunately, our living costs are relatively low so it is doable.

But today we had to spend £500.00 on car repairs and I really need new work clothes, but I cannot justify the expense in light of our plans. We don't go out anymore, we rarely go out to eat, we drink at the cheap places if we fancy a pint out. I don't buy take away food, I don't buy lunch out or takeaway coffees. I go to the supermarket once a week only.

The sacrifices are necessary. I don't need to buy things to make myself happy. I know that to make myself happy I need to get out of the city, quit the 9 - 5 and live in a fresh, natural environment. But it all needs to be done with careful planning.

The thing is, I don't plan on coming back, ever. It has suddenly dawned on me that as of 2011 this life ends then.

Recently I read an interview with Oprah Winfrey who was discussing her latest battle with her weight. She described how she was asked the question of "what are you really hungry for ?" I forget her exact answer but I thought it was an interesting and probing question.

So I ask myself "what am I really thirsty for?"

I know what I am really thirsty for, most of which I can make happen, but somethings I simply cant deliver, these things will always be out of reach, that part of my thirst I will never quench.

2 comments:

Alice said...

I think you are on the right path. You have to focus on your goals in order to get where you want to be. I hope you find what you are looking for. We, although we love the travel aspect and meeting new and interesting people doing amazing things with their lives, are still having trouble finding 'our place'. We're simply not sure where it should be. But we are enjoying life getting to that point and have faith in fate :-)

Dreamer said...

Hi Alice - its tough isnt it - I too am looking forward to travelling abut am also concerned about finding my place in the world - I've moved several times in the UK, mostly for work purposes but none of them have been "the place", im just getting a bit concerned that i am destined to be a wandering malcontent, LOL.