Friday, 14 November 2008

Hope

I have to admit that I am not in a very good place at the moment mentally and emotionally. I have so many hopes and dreams. Before I can get to my dreams I have to get back on the road to my destination. I need to re-start the journey.

Another door was closed to me today for work. I am sick of recruitment agencies, sick of temping. I need some stability. I need a job so I can enjoy my journey to my dreams. At the moment I feel that I am existing and not living. I will admit to being secretly envious of people who have found their niche in the working world, have steady decent paying jobs with prospects. Whats wrong with me? Why does it always seem like a struggle?

I am really worried for the future. The longer I am out of work the more difficult it is going to be to get back into work. These issues are beyond my control. I am doing everything I can and more to find work.

5 comments:

Jerry Critter said...

Hang in there. Things will get better. There is nothing wrong with you. Life can be a struggle, but you have the support of DH and your friends. Keep at it, and you will find work.

Claire said...

thanks Jerry

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MoneyBlogga said...

We're all in it together. We are not all lucky enough to have had nurturing and educated parents to get us started off on the right foot in life and, as a result, we are always a little off balance. I guess we have to find that one thing that will put us (back) in the frame of mind that we can accomplish anything we set our minds to. For me, I have used money in the past to create that familiar sense of chaos and disorder in my life. As in, spending it all and getting in way over my head so as to ensure that there's not a cent left with plenty of stress to go with it. I know that my life must be in balance for me to move onward and upward and so I work daily to solve my monetary issues. Is there anything that you can work on right now to regain some sense of control?

Dreamer said...

Hi Moneyblogga

Yeah you hit the nail on the head there. I think I have always known deep down that I did not get what I needed as a child from my parents, I did not get love, emotional support,guidance, stability etc this has definately had an effect, as you say things have been out of balance